First Yahrtzeit

The term Yahrzeit  comes from the Yiddish (German)  literally meaning  "year time".  It is an annual remembrance of a loved one who has died, and occurs each year on the anniversary of the day of death.  It is one of the traditions of bereavement in Judaism.  The word bereave comes from old English:  be + reave ;  the word reave  meaning to to steal or rob - i.e.  being robbed of  a loved one.  And that is how I feel.